With his first photographic album, Christian Heymann embarks on an emotional and personal journey. In dark, melancholic and beautiful shots, the photographer processes the failed relationship with his girlfriend. Faced with the desire for an open relationship, Heymann found himself in a calamitous situation, which was quickly characterized by envy and jealousy and subsequently developed a disturbing dynamic. The waning love, the appearance of other partners, and the constant struggle for affirmation left Heymann feeling numb. His book shows the complicated process of mutual alienation and is simultaneously an attempt both to come to terms with what he and his girlfriend experienced and to find each other in a new way. Photographs marked by vulnerability and emotional froideur mix with sensitive still lifes and threatening landscape scenes to create a poignantly atmospheric narrative that reveals a deep and intimate view into the state of mind of those portrayed.